Monthly Archives: April 2016

My struggle helps the world become more perfect

Yes, another thought provoking comment by my yoga instructor. This one caused me to pause.

I was explaining to a client recently how I intentionally hold contradictory “thought spaces” in my mind – such as my joy of letting go of my perfectionism and my belief that the present is perfect just as it is. Holding those two opposing perspectives and allowing their opposition stretches my view of the world and my brain. In a good way.

Here is another contradiction to open my mind to – that while I am letting go of struggle, I can also know that my struggle, when it happens, helps the world become more perfect.

That my willingness to walk through my darkness and challenges can bring more peace and lightness to the world – even if I don’t know exactly how. Or why. That my willingness to face my trials and tribulations – real and imagined, in yoga and in life – can somehow allow more ease to others around me.

I don’t have to understand it, but I can enjoy it.

I don’t take this new concept as a reason to struggle, and struggle more, but sometimes life – and yoga – is demanding and tough. Sometimes striving is a positive response. Sometimes we’re faced with things that test us, no matter how evolved we try to be. At least sometimes I am. And the concept that this striving and struggle has a positive effect – that it can cause good and lightness and love – inspires me.

Sometimes, as I relax into a pose that is difficult for me or I breathe through a fear or tough situation (or person) it’s soothing to remember that my struggle can open the way for calm, care, and serenity for the world. For my joy and ease and peace.

Maybe it’s just me. But when she said it, it caused me to pause, and it brings me relief and release.

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Objects in motion tend to stay in motion

The good news is that I’ve been very busy recently. The bad news is that I’ve been very busy recently.

I’m moving through it relatively well. My self-care and meditation practices are still nonnegotiable. I’m making it to yoga. I’m breathing and writing and practicing (sometimes intermittent) mindfulness. And I’m having fun with all, if not nearly all, that I’m doing.

But I’m very busy.

I noticed it – more starkly than usual – when I treated myself to a massage a few weeks ago. It had been months since my last massage. My weekly gift to myself had somehow started to feel like a burden and a to-do. Weird, I know. So I took a little break from massages, and my little break grew and grew. I was very busy, and kept forgetting to carve out time for a massage.

But I did, just a few weeks ago. I carved out time on a Saturday morning, headed off to the massage place, lay myself down on the table…and watched my mind race. And race. And race. Somehow in that moment of lying still, I was immensely and intensely aware of how not still I was. And had been.

Objects at rest tend to stay at rest, and objects in motion tend to stay in motion. I guess I was feeling my motion slowly slow down and pause, but in the meantime, I was just feeling it. And it was weird.

But it got my attention. It made me reflect on how fast and constant my pace has been – even with my yoga and meditation and mindfulness – and it made me reflect on how fast and constant I want it to be.

I’m fine with going fast at times – many times in fact. I’m fine with full steam ahead and moving quickly and powerfully. But only if it’s by choice. Only if it’s intentional. And only if I’m really, really sure I’m taking care of myself – and finding my moments of peace, quiet, and slowness – along the way.

So I scheduled another massage.

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Just be (me)

Okay, so here’s my new yoga mantra. The thought that permeates my being as we stand in mountain pose, about to start our practice. “Just be me.”

I am on a quest, a journey, a discovery, to just be. And to just be me.

I know I have old habits of trying hard, and trying hard to please. I’m sure I slip into what’s needed or necessary or “best” in a situation, without even thinking about it. I’m pretty certain that when I’m on auto-drive, I’m – perhaps unconsciously – molding myself to show up right.

Old habits can die hard. But they can die.

I want to live fully, freely, completely me in every moment. To allow my joy and my pain. To embrace it all. To be easy to be around and to be difficult. To just be, without censoring it.

How much time and energy do many of us waste in sanitizing ourselves? In cutting out the parts we think we’re not supposed to have or be, or not supposed to have or be here. Or with this person.

I want to just be. And to just be me.

I realize that no one is asking me not be me. At least they’re not any more. And if they are, who cares? I realize I ask it of myself. And I realize that I can stop.

I want to welcome with open arms my good and my bad, my whole and my broken, my light and my dark. I want to start my love affair with myself, to love and accept myself more and more and more.

To just be. And to just be me.

That is my yoga mantra and intention. That is my goal. To allow. To breathe. To be.

Me.

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