Okay, I’ll admit it. I was questioning again. I was at the gym, on the elliptical machine, wondering why I blogged.
I get comments. Of course I’d like more. I love to share my thoughts, to offer the concepts and realizations that move me and astound me. I love to imagine all the reflecting I’m igniting in others. But that morning I couldn’t seem to get out of the endless loop of, “Why do I do this? Does anyone care?”
I write because I love to write. It’s fun. I write because I like the idea that I can make a difference. That the things that inspire me and help me get out of my stinking thinking, or even just a bad mood, might also inspire someone who reads my blog. I write because I think I have something to say.
The problem is, in my doubting moments I question if anyone wants to hear what I have to say.
So I spent my allotted thirty minutes on the elliptical wondering if I should keep blogging. If I should change what I blogged about. If it mattered. I like what I’m sharing, but is that enough?
Then I stepped to the back of the room to grab a cloth to wipe down the machine, and I ran into a friend. “I really love to read your blog,” she said. I smiled. “I don’t usually comment, but I love to read it.”
Now, I know she is a friend, so she may care more about what I write. And I know she’s just one person. I know I still, perhaps, should think about what I’m blogging and what’s best to blog. But I had to smile, and smile big.
Because I felt, once again, answered by the universe. I had asked and I had received. I had questioned and been given an answer. I had wondered and doubted and worried, and I had been reassured.
That’s my inspiration to share today. ☺ If we need a response we can sometimes get one. If we crave encouragement, it might just be there for us to stumble upon, as close as the next exercise machine.
So I will keep blogging, at least for now. I will keep sharing what I’m learning and seeing. I will also keep looking for new and hopefully interesting ideas to offer, questions to pose, and discussions to ignite.
And I’ll keep smiling when my doubts are reassured.
I’d love to hear your thoughts, and please share this post with others if it resonates with you!