Again yoga. Again a reminder. Again a reminder I need to hear.
Have I shared here that my brother once told me that I even try to perfectly not be perfect? I’m sure I have. I’m sure I do. Sometimes I think I can’t help it.
Just like I keep pushing. Even when I think I’m not pushing.
I “needed” to write this blog post. I already skipped a post. I “can’t” skip another. Why not? Seriously, why not? Does anyone care but me? My son wants to play and hang out and make guacamole with me. Why am I pushing to get this done?
Old habits can die hard. But at least I’m aware of it. Awareness is the first step, I always say. I taught that to my daughter. “You never told me that’s from AA,” she said. It is. And it’s true. I’m aware that I’m pushing, even as I try and stop pushing. I’m aware that I’m pushing to stop pushing. And I’m aware that I’m trying to do that perfectly too.
For today that’s okay. For today I’ve pushed through to quickly write this post…and then I’m heading into the kitchen to hang out and play and make guacamole.
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