Okay, so maybe I’m just repeating the wisdom my yoga instructors share in our classes, but I figure if they touch, inspire, and help me, they might be useful to others as well. So here we go….
“Be okay with exactly where you are.”
Now, clearly, the instructor was referring to our yoga practice, and poses. Because in a world (and a class) full of over-achievers and over-doers, I humbly believe that we can never have too many reminders. Okay, so I can never have too many reminders. Each time they pause me and center me. And ground me.
Be okay with exactly where you are. Be okay with exactly where you are.
I caught the “not enough” bug at a young age. I know I say that all the time here, but it’s true. I caught it well, and I caught it hard.
I lovingly put the “not enough” bug away each time it kicks back in. The shame washes over me, and I breathe. My stomach clenches, or my heart tightens, and I breathe. I remember that it’s exactly okay – I’m exactly okay – where I am.
I know my yoga instructor was referring to our yoga class, and pose, and I know she was referring to life outside of the yoga studio as well.
The mood I’m in? It’s okay. The parenting I’m doing? It’s okay. The tasks I’m crossing off my to-do list? They’re enough…and okay. The steps I’ve taken on To The Moon and Back today? They’re okay.
What a weird concept to be okay with exactly where I am. EXACTLY where I am. Even as much as I’ve healed and wholed, just the other day I noticed – again – how much I watch my situations, how much I read the emotions and reactions – real and imagined – of everyone around me. Or at least the people who matter to me.
If I’m aware of everything, I can do whatever I need to to make things right. To keep me safe. If I pay close attention to the reactions and needs of others, I can manage things. Handle things. Control things.
Wow, these reflexes are deeply ingrained. And wow, I no longer want them. They may have helped and saved me years ago, but wow, now I long to be free.
I long to be okay with exactly where I am. How I am. Who I am. I love when I am okay with exactly where I am and how I am and who I am.
Be okay with exactly where you are. It’s a much, much better choice.
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