It’s getting real. It’s getting intense. And my perfectionism is trying damn hard to kick in.
In the last month, we’ve finalized the book, created a behind-the-scenes video and a customized playlist, launched the pre-order campaign, revealed a bit of my “less than normal” past to clients who had no idea, and worked out details on my book tour events. Just a few details. Just a bit naked-feeling. Just a good chance for my perfectionism to kick in.
I feel that I’m more anxious than usual. I notice my intense desire to GET THINGS SETTLED AND DONE! I watch my desperate need to control more things that I can’t control. And did I ever mention that I’m not that good at details. I’m not that good at details.
I am terrified of messing this all up!
So today I decided that I would forgive myself, in advance, for every ball I might drop, detail I might miss, and person I might forget to email. I forgive myself, in advance, for my reactions when people react to the first chapter…and when they don’t. I forgive myself, in advance, for book events that don’t happen and media interviews I don’t get. I forgive myself, in advance, if I’m ever not gracious, or not gracious enough. I forgive myself, in advance, for that edgy feeling that’s staying with me a bit, as more and more people read more and more about me. It would be great if I completely didn’t care what others think, instead of just mostly not caring.
I forgive myself. I forgive myself. I forgive myself in advance. I hope you can forgive me too.
Because I wrote this book to share hope, love, and joy. I worked for nearly twenty years to make it as strong as I could and to find the right publisher…in order to share hope, love, and joy. I connect with each and every one of you in order to share hope, love, and joy. And I therefore refuse to move through this process in fear of mistakes and mishaps. I refuse to stay anxious, afraid, and desperate. Instead I choose to enjoy this process, to laugh at my mistakes, and to open my arms and heart to the excitement and fun.
I choose to forgive myself – now in advance and again and again and again along the way, if necessary.
And to have fun. Join me?
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Lisa, I Loved the first chapter and can’t wait to read the rest!!
Bless you Friend?❤️
Bless you!! xoxoxoxoxoxo