It’s been quite a week and quite a whirlwind. I can feel my pulse racing more often than not and my brain clicking through details, so I don’t forget anything.
I’ve already forgotten things.
One of the main things I’ve forgotten is to breathe. To make sure I have fun along the way. To bask and relax and ease and flow.
I’ve kicked into overdrive. No wonder huh? It used to be such a default for me that I didn’t even know it was there. My way-down-slow was many other people’s fast; and I pissed them off as I sped along.
Now at least I notice it. I notice that I’m walking and checking my phone – or at least wanting to. I notice that I’m addicted to any book rankings I can find. I notice that I’m “ON” more often than not. I notice that I’m pushing through and being anywhere but where I am.
I need to breathe. I need to walk and just walk. To sit and just sit. To be and just be. Today is a chance to practice what I preach. Today is a chance to let go. To let go of my drive. To let go of my need to get things done. To let go of the details (that I can’t seem to keep track of anyway).
Even just writing “breathe” makes me stop to breathe. I am so grateful for the “muscle memory” I’ve built over the years that can kick in when I slow down. I feel my heart rate reduce. I feel my shoulders ease back down my back. I feel my mind stop racing. I breathe.
I breathe and stop trying to control the things that are clearly out of my control. I breathe and enjoy the things that are here to be enjoyed. I breathe and come back into the moment. This moment. Only this moment.
I breathe. I feel ease. I am more at peace. There is more joy.
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