When you’re raised as I was, with what seems like, at times, only fanaticism, this concept is a bit tough to grasp. Moderation doesn’t save the world. Moderation doesn’t protect you when you’re not safe. Moderation doesn’t prove your worth. How can moderation be something to aim for?
But moderation is my new goal.
(Although, as someone whose brother once told them, “you even try to do not perfect perfectly!” I need to remember that making moderation my new goal might push me toward fanaticism about moderation.)
But, again, moderation is my new goal.
“Anything worth doing is worth doing poorly.” At least it’s worth doing poorly as you learn to do it or if it’s fun to do it even if you do it poorly or if poorly is all you have and all you can do. This is also a wild, new, tough to grasp concept for me.
But I think it can be freeing.
When I go in, I go all in. Even when all in might drive me into the ground. When I’m learning something, I often don’t give myself room to learn because I won’t give myself freedom to fail along the way. When I’m living my life, I live most moments trying to be my best self and to always be learning and growing. Which is all good, except, again, as someone who instinctively tries to do not perfect perfectly, sometimes it’s probably best for me to not try and be my best self. To just let things be. To just let me be.
To let moderation – even moderation around my own growth and best, evolved-self being – be my new goal.
As someone who was raised with fanaticism, as someone who learned to “Work harder. Sacrifice more. Accomplish greater and greater things for God and True Parents,” moderation is a tough concept to grasp.
But “everything in moderation, nothing in fanaticism” is my new goal.
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