There are obvious reasons why parts of me, especially younger parts of me, think I need to protect myself at pretty much all times. I share those parts, those feelings, that carving and grooming of my brain and self, here often and perhaps a lot. I’m pretty sure there are others who have some of the same carving and grooming, even if not from being raised in an extremist situation. I will always share all of that darker side here, so that others hopefully know that they’re not alone and that there is hope.
That said, I’m happy to acknowledge and celebrate that the whole of me is realizing – or remembering – that I actually don’t have to protect myself. I may have had to when I was young (hence the younger parts still thinking I need to), but I don’t have to now.
It’s not that everything around me is all easy and exhilaratingly wonderful. It’s that I’m realizing and remembering that even if everything isn’t easy and wonderful, even if some things are still downright hard, I don’t have to protect myself, because I am okay.
I am okay. I am good. I am enough.
I have the wherewithal to take care of myself. I have boundaries that keep me safe and whole. I have absolute dedication to loving and caring for myself first, most, and always (and in all ways) that is and will always be there for me, as a buffer and a refuge when and if I need it.
I play with this thought over and over – what if I had nothing to protect myself from? I ask myself that question. I remind myself of that truth. I live and love into that more and more.
If I have nothing to protect myself from, because nothing can truly get into me and hurt me like it could when I was young, I can open my heart even more and live as Love Embodied. I can share my truth and message of loving ourselves first, most, and always and know that whomever needs and wants to hear that will, and whomever does not does not need to listen. I can stand in my reality and perspective, whilst also being open to others. I can Love With All My Heart and continue to give and love as I love to give and love. I can take risks and be courageous. I can know that I’m secure and beautiful and whole just as I am.
I can live each day with all my heart and soul and love and joy and connection and learning and healing and magnificence – in my daily outrageous, magic love affair with myself.
Because I have nothing to protect myself from any more. Because I am okay.
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