I am deep in a course on Transformational Coaching, to find more ways to create and hold space for my coaching clients – and the world – to find the path, the wholeness, and the healing they want and need.
This involves deepening into radical acceptance. Acceptance of all. Of the things and situations and feelings and reactions that I like…and of the ones that I don’t. That are hard for me.
It is a beautiful practice, and it wholes and grounds me every time…and then…
I think I wrote back in September that I was in the midst of a cancer scare, and that my doctor’s nurse convinced me to wait until my regular follow up appointment to check in with the doctor.
That appointment was yesterday, and my routine scan that was supposed to be scheduled in the end of January is now this Friday. It would have been sooner if I could have made that happen.
The few people I’ve told so far are asking me how I am. My answer, “Relatively okay. Or at least okay enough.”
I am somehow calm with this last week of waiting. I am somehow not anticipating too much, or perhaps the truth is that I’m going back and forth – seeing myself clean and clear and seeing myself not.
I’m accepting the fear as it comes. The anger as it comes. The acceptance as it comes. The sadness as it comes. The hope as it comes. The joy that’s still around and in me as it comes.
I’ve just finished my keynoting course and am damn ready to take The Power Of Joyful Leadership out to the world (ping me if you have an audience for my keynote 😊). I’m on websites to update my outfit (to easily accommodate a lavalier mike and to include yellow) and to find little yellow birds that I can give out. I so want to be here for a very long time for all of this.
There’s so much that I want to be here for for a very long time.
And, at the same time, I am okay. Okay enough. I will take more from this scare journey than it takes from me, just as I did the cancer.
And I will radically accept. And radically accept again. And again.
Because that is my path. My wholeness. My healing.
My joy.
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