I was rehearsing First Most Always (my new keynote – ping me for details to be one of the first to see it!) with my theatre-camp friends, as someone’s partner refers to us all, and I hit the part about Post Traumatic Growth.
“You don’t seem very excited about it,” they said. “How do you actually feel?”
Let me be clear. This feedback was all about us learning to emote with the audience whilst on stage and to be fully, fully, fully authentically ourselves on stage, not about the gloriousness of Post Traumatic Growth, which is outrageously glorious.
But I somehow wasn’t conveying that gloriousness. At all.
So, let me be clear again. It is outrageously, magically, powerfully, absolutely f——g glorious. Gloriousness and ease and joy and strength and power and groundedness and me-ness that I never knew existed. That I had no idea was possible.
The old “don’t speak too highly of yourself” tapes in my head had pushed me not to share that gloriousness. Not here and not in my keynote. But my dear theatre-camp friends reminded me that that is exactly what I need to share.
I need to be as clear as I can be, so that others will know that whatever work and play they do on their own healing and growing, it is so so so so so so so f——–g worth it.
Absolutely worth it.
I sometimes still have tough moments and reactions and protective responses. I sometimes still re-remind myself that it is a process and there’s more to come and go. I sometimes still must actively remember to pause and breathe and ground and be…and that it’s okay to be…and that I no longer have to fight to be,
But even those moments are fewer and fewer. More and more of my time is fully me, fully in me, fully wholed me.
And that is f———g amazing!
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