Breathe in joy and magnificence

Breathe in joy and magnificence

Last Friday was my birthday. I was alone much of the day, in quiet and contemplation and self-love and care, which was glorious. I was with life-long friends and dear family, in celebration and deep conversation, which was spectacular. I was surrounded and lovingly...
Learn to accept exactly how you are right now

Learn to accept exactly how you are right now

I have treatment #5 in a few days (or maybe the day you see this). I went for a ‘trot’ today because damn, I wanted to and it might not be at all possible in a few days. I am wobbly and weak, maybe because of my trot. I’m full up on anxiety in this very moment, which...
I am breathing through and finding the joy

I am breathing through and finding the joy

Damn but this time of year is beautiful. The sun in the morning. The flowers blooming. The trees against the sky. The yellow birds. Yes, my yellow birds are visiting my bird feeder every day. They were coming for a while; they seemed to go away; and they’re back. Damn...
Whatever lifts my spirit and soul is what I want now

Whatever lifts my spirit and soul is what I want now

I am allowing myself to feel however I feel – the “good,” the “bad,” the in-between. I am using RAIN (recognize, allow/accept, investigate, and nurture – thank you Tara Brach!!!) to move through the feelings…or to let them move through me. As a child, I had to not...