Good job not dying

Good job not dying

Yesterday was my cancer-versary. Two years ago, I had my everything-ectomy and received my cancer diagnosis. It’s definitely still weird to process. I’m sitting outside nearly all day long these days, either on the daybed on my side porch or in the hammock between the...
Yes, that really happened

Yes, that really happened

(TW – I write about molestation) It is so easy to downplay some or all of the trauma that happened to us. It’s common to not even really remember it and to disregard or doubt it when we do remember it. This is our body and being’s defense mechanism that kicks in,...
Relax into okayness

Relax into okayness

My heart hurts a little. I think it’s mostly because I’m tired. I still get weary at the end of the day, and whilst I am so looking forward to curling up on the couch with my heated-pillow/security blanket and watching a movie, I am pushing myself a wee bit to get...
god is in the place we hate ourselves most

god is in the place we hate ourselves most

I’ve long said that my god – god with an intentional small g – is love. My god is the energy that we all are and that we are all connected by (check out quantum physics). My god is the healing force of warmth and adoration and tenderness…for ourselves and others....
It sucks to be human when you were raised not to be

It sucks to be human when you were raised not to be

I was on the phone with a Second Gen friend (those of us born and/or raised in an extremist situation or cult). She has two young kids and had lost it with one of them. Her shame slam was huge, because she felt she hadn’t been the amazing mom she wants to be. I let...