it sucks to be human when you were raised not to be

it sucks to be human when you were raised not to be

I was on the phone with a Second Gen friend (those of us born and/or raised in an extremist situation or cult). She has two young kids and had lost it with one of them. Her shame slam was huge, because she felt she hadn’t been the amazing mom she wants to be. I let...
give yourself grace today

give yourself grace today

Again, a yoga practice. Again, what I (always) need to hear. Give yourself grace today. I saw a dear, longtime friend yesterday. My first coaching client. In fact, the person who helped me become a coach when she said to me, “I want to be you. Do you coach?” I quickly...
anger tells us what we need

anger tells us what we need

I was raised never to be angry. Perhaps many of us were. Especially those of us raised as girls. Especially those of us raised in a purity culture cult, where Eve was the absolute cause of all human suffering. Because of her sinfulness. Because of her wantonness....
the quiet in my head is so beautiful

the quiet in my head is so beautiful

The most amazing thing has happened to me recently. It’s gone quiet in my head. I’ve not been one of those people with songs constantly playing inside my brain, and I have had more and more moments of quiet and calm in the recent past. But in the last few weeks, it’s...
If you let go a little, you will find a little peace…

If you let go a little, you will find a little peace…

“If you let go a little, you will find a little peace. If you let go a lot, you will find a lot of peace. If you let go completely, you will find complete peace.” Ajahn Chah What more is there to say or to write. When I first crawled into Al-Anon, thinking only, “Tell...
I don’t really think I’ve seen you cry before

I don’t really think I’ve seen you cry before

That’s what my therapist said to me, when I said something like, “Wow, I’ve cried so much…” My therapist since, I think, 2009, off and on. She’s seen me a lot, but according to her, that a lot didn’t include a lot of crying. This conversation was at least a few months...