Breathe through the tricky parts

Breathe through the tricky parts

Breathe through the tricky parts. That’s what my yoga instructor gave us the other day. Breathe through the tricky parts. Right now, I have a lot of tricky parts. I also downplay them. Just like I downplay the past, at times. I believe it is a common survivor survival...
It’s okay to relax…

It’s okay to relax…

Somewhere in the last few weeks, as if there wasn’t enough going on with me, my body and brain remembered another layer to my trauma. I was in therapy. We were working through all the many emotions coursing through me these days – including my current sleep challenges...
Find the joy in this breath. In this moment.

Find the joy in this breath. In this moment.

As my chemo’d eases, my insomnia’d has crept a bit back in. F—g p—s me off. I want to only start feeling less achy, less tired, more like me, and instead I have days with the physical, mental, and emotional pain of insomnia’d. Where I feel so bad, I can’t...
I am breathing through and finding the joy

I am breathing through and finding the joy

Damn but this time of year is beautiful. The sun in the morning. The flowers blooming. The trees against the sky. The yellow birds. Yes, my yellow birds are visiting my bird feeder every day. They were coming for a while; they seemed to go away; and they’re back. Damn...