I can sit with all of this

I can sit with all of this

Last week was a tough week. I had a scare, or at least something that scared me, mostly because of lack of communication from my doctors. That threw me. My kid, who had been here taking such sweet care of me and spending so much scrumptious time with me, left to go...
It’s all okay. Nothing is wrong.

It’s all okay. Nothing is wrong.

Somehow that seems hard to believe right now, and yet my mind and soul are reaching for it and reaching for it to be true. It’s all okay. Nothing is wrong. Last year was a long year of a lot that felt wrong. Very wrong. That I wish hadn’t happened or hadn’t happened...
What will feel good right now?

What will feel good right now?

I’m getting a wee bit tired of writing this, but now is hard. Now is a lot. I have a bit more still to come, and now is already a lot. I might be tired of writing it, but I have to remember it. I have to remember that now is – and has been…and will be – a lot. And I...
Breathe through the tricky parts

Breathe through the tricky parts

Breathe through the tricky parts. That’s what my yoga instructor gave us the other day. Breathe through the tricky parts. Right now, I have a lot of tricky parts. I also downplay them. Just like I downplay the past, at times. I believe it is a common survivor survival...
It’s okay to relax…

It’s okay to relax…

Somewhere in the last few weeks, as if there wasn’t enough going on with me, my body and brain remembered another layer to my trauma. I was in therapy. We were working through all the many emotions coursing through me these days – including my current sleep challenges...