self expression is a regulated nervous system

self expression is a regulated nervous system

I’m trying to remember where I heard this. Perhaps it doesn’t matter. All I know is that it resonated with me then, and each time I read and reread it, it reverberates deeper and fuller. I reverberate deeper and fuller. As someone who was groomed and contained and...
that is my past. it’s not who I am

that is my past. it’s not who I am

I am feeling my past – and the scars and chains of my past – healing and falling off of me in the most powerful ways. I’m deep in EMDR in a therapy session, or lying on the table during some body work, and I mentally go back to moments in my childhood, per usual. I...
what if I had nothing to protect myself from?

what if I had nothing to protect myself from?

There are obvious reasons why parts of me, especially younger parts of me, think I need to protect myself at pretty much all times. I share those parts, those feelings, that carving and grooming of my brain and self, here often and perhaps a lot. I’m pretty sure there...
I will take more from cancer than cancer takes from me

I will take more from cancer than cancer takes from me

I heard this from a ‘cancer-friend’ (someone with cancer or a cancer survivor whom you meet whilst you have cancer versus someone you knew before or after who also had cancer). It wasn’t hers, but she passed it on to me from her friend who had cancer. Who actually...
play is so important, and joy is so important

play is so important, and joy is so important

This morning the universe gifted me with an Instagram clip of Gabor Maté, quoting Winne the Pooh (one of my favorite philosophers!). “Play is so important, and joy is so important,” he shared. It feels like that’s all that really needs to be said. I’m staying with...
You’re here to be

You’re here to be

Again, my yoga instructor. Again, a reminder I needed. Again, it’s about yoga and it’s about life. We’re here to be. To simply be. I’ve been playing and being with this idea more and more, even before I heard it in yoga. What is life if I’m just being? Not trying. Not...