Speak my truth with a clear voice

Speak my truth with a clear voice

I’ve written before about the cult hymn I grew up with: How will I use this treasure store? How will I share this wordless joy? I’ll greet all men with a loving heart. I’ll speak the truth with a clear voice. I was taught to be a heavenly soldier for god and my “True...
I’m still trying

I’m still trying

I noticed this the other day. Old habits can die hard, I guess. I know. I was still trying. Trying to rest well. Trying to do enough. Trying not to do too much. Trying to get it right, right, right. As my new saying goes, I’m gonna let that shit go. It makes sense...
Figuring out what’s mine (and what’s not)

Figuring out what’s mine (and what’s not)

As a former #cultkid – as someone whose brain was intentionally carved so that I would have no concept of (or need for, or ability to have) boundaries and needs – I can still have a hard time figuring out what’s mine and what’s not. What is my responsibility? What are...
I can sit with all of this

I can sit with all of this

Last week was a tough week. I had a scare, or at least something that scared me, mostly because of lack of communication from my doctors. That threw me. My kid, who had been here taking such sweet care of me and spending so much scrumptious time with me, left to go...
It’s all okay. Nothing is wrong.

It’s all okay. Nothing is wrong.

Somehow that seems hard to believe right now, and yet my mind and soul are reaching for it and reaching for it to be true. It’s all okay. Nothing is wrong. Last year was a long year of a lot that felt wrong. Very wrong. That I wish hadn’t happened or hadn’t happened...
What will feel good right now?

What will feel good right now?

I’m getting a wee bit tired of writing this, but now is hard. Now is a lot. I have a bit more still to come, and now is already a lot. I might be tired of writing it, but I have to remember it. I have to remember that now is – and has been…and will be – a lot. And I...