Find the joy in this breath. In this moment.

Find the joy in this breath. In this moment.

As my chemo’d eases, my insomnia’d has crept a bit back in. F—g p—s me off. I want to only start feeling less achy, less tired, more like me, and instead I have days with the physical, mental, and emotional pain of insomnia’d. Where I feel so bad, I can’t...
I am breathing through and finding the joy

I am breathing through and finding the joy

Damn but this time of year is beautiful. The sun in the morning. The flowers blooming. The trees against the sky. The yellow birds. Yes, my yellow birds are visiting my bird feeder every day. They were coming for a while; they seemed to go away; and they’re back. Damn...
Whatever lifts my spirit and soul is what I want now

Whatever lifts my spirit and soul is what I want now

I am allowing myself to feel however I feel – the “good,” the “bad,” the in-between. I am using RAIN (recognize, allow/accept, investigate, and nurture – thank you Tara Brach!!!) to move through the feelings…or to let them move through me. As a child, I had to not...
I am allowed to do whatever the f—k I want…

I am allowed to do whatever the f—k I want…

I noticed it a while back. “Am I allowed to do that?” I’d ask my therapist. “Am I allowed to feel that way?” “Is it okay that I want this?” I noticed it in my work with my clients as well. There I’d flip it, and tell them they were allowed to do, think, feel, try,...