I’m letting go of my deeply engrained guilt

I’m letting go of my deeply engrained guilt

Perhaps there’s something about being raised in a cult that carves guilt and shame deeply into one’s psyche. (Trust me there is.) Perhaps it’s something that many, if not all, of us have had inflicted into us, one way or another. Either way, I am realizing more and...
How can I have even more (self) compassion?

How can I have even more (self) compassion?

I feel like a broken record as I write, again, that healing is not linear and now can be hard. I’m tired of feeling that way, and I’m tired of writing that. I could clearly have even more self-compassion. So many of us have been so conditioned to push ourselves...
I know how to soothe my heart

I know how to soothe my heart

Today is a hurting day. Wish it wasn’t, but it is. They happen. Wish they didn’t, but they do. I’m doing my best to do the hurting days differently. To love and care for myself beyond measure. To do all I can to soothe my heart. I know how to soothe my heart. I know...
Speak my truth with a clear voice

Speak my truth with a clear voice

I’ve written before about the cult hymn I grew up with: How will I use this treasure store? How will I share this wordless joy? I’ll greet all men with a loving heart. I’ll speak the truth with a clear voice. I was taught to be a heavenly soldier for god and my “True...
I’m still trying

I’m still trying

I noticed this the other day. Old habits can die hard, I guess. I know. I was still trying. Trying to rest well. Trying to do enough. Trying not to do too much. Trying to get it right, right, right. As my new saying goes, I’m gonna let that shit go. It makes sense...