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I feel a little bit nauseous

I submitted the final draft of my manuscript to my publisher this week. I feel a little bit nauseous.

I know it’s an ultra-exciting step. I know it’s an absolutely amazing way to start the New Year. I know it’s what I’ve dreamed of for years.

And I feel a bit nauseous.

Apparently (obviously) finding a publisher was just a first step. There are so many steps after that and to come. It’s been edited and edited and edited (by me and by others). And most likely, after the publisher takes another look, it may be edited some more.

There’s publicity to figure out. And the title to finalize. (More on that soon.) And the cover design to approve. And the cover copy to write.

I feel a bit nauseous.

I feel my old self – my perfectionist, find the RIGHT way to do everything self – kicking in. I remind myself that there isn’t a right way and that I’ll figure this all out. I guess publishing this book is merely an exercise in applying all the lessons I’ve learned in writing the book and in writing the blog. And in living my life.

What if I missed something? I scream in my head. It’ll be okay I try to answer. What if it sucks? my fears erupt. It’ll be okay I try and answer. What if no one wants to read it? I whimper. It’ll be okay I try and answer.

It’ll be okay. It’ll be okay. It’ll be okay.

It’ll be okay whatever feedback my publisher has at this point. It’ll be okay if I’m not sure of what decision to make when. It’ll be okay.

Truth be told, I want this book to go far and influence many. Truth be told, I want to give it my all and my best. Truth be told, I want to remember to have fun with it along the way.

So, I am a bit nauseous right now, but I’m also going to celebrate. And celebrate big. It is a Woo Hoo! kind of day.

I submitted the final draft of my manuscript to my publisher this week.

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Beauty is all around you. Don’t miss it.

Yoga class this morning, and this was the instructor’s instruction to us. It’s something I know. Something (I think) I practice. And something I can stand to be reminded of again and again and again.

And again.

There is so much pain and suffering in the world. There is so much to look at that is, or at least can be, upsetting. I could find reasons to be in pain and anguish in lives around me, and in my own life as well.

And there is so much beauty. It’s there for me to see, if I’ll just notice it.

It doesn’t mean the awful isn’t awful. It doesn’t mean I’m slapping a smiley face on the things that hurt, and suck, and need to be changed. It doesn’t mean I’m not going to fight the good fights and change what I can – in myself, my life, and my world.

It just means that in the midst of that fight, in the midst of every day, I can stop and notice. And notice again. I can literally and figuratively smell the roses.

It’s the sun shining again after a storm. Laughter with my friends of decades, as we eat a fine dinner looking over the ocean, with fireworks exploding behind us. It’s running into a good friend whom I haven’t seen for too long, and having a few minutes at a high school football game, as we even won the game. It’s the horde of yellow birds I saw not once but twice today.

I can pay attention to all the wonder and splendor and glory and love that surrounds me. Or I can not.

Beauty is all around you. Beauty is all around me. Don’t miss it.

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Joy is my highest purpose

In my Positive Psychology certification course, we had to name our life’s purpose. It is clear to me – very clear to me – that my purpose is to love. To love others. To love myself. To spread and share and rejoice in more and more love in this world. I firmly believe it’s what we need and what will heal us (which we need now even more than ever).

My purpose is also joy. Deep-hearted, full-bodied, life-sustaining joy. To find reasons to be joyful. To spread joy as well. To see the beauty in the world around me and rejoice in it. Savor it. Bask in it. Call it out and affirm it. (Have I mentioned that I’ve seen yellow birds – many yellow birds – every day? It’s as if they’re seeking me out.)

There are so many reasons to be joyful each and every day – even the hard days. And there are so many reasons to miss the reasons to be joyful. I have to train my heart and soul and senses to look for joy and to notice it. I have to remind my mind that even just a bit of joy will fuel my heart and soul.

I live to love. I live to connect. I live for joy and laughter and beauty. I notice the sun dappling on the trees. The bluest sky and yellowest birds. The snuggle with my son. The time with my friends. The ease in my heart and soul.

There is joy and love abounding, if I open myself to it. I’m going to look for it and delight in it. To luxuriate in it and wallow in it and celebrate it.

Joy and love are my highest purpose.

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